The Cave

There was a time when civilization lived in the outer world
This world was beautiful, filled with unbound treasures
Yet as time went on, the conditions changed
And the treasures became too overwhelming to endure
So the civilization went seeking refuge, a place of safety
They found a cave, a cave that would keep them warm
And they went into the cave to dwell
But loving the world they used to know they told stories
Many, many stories about their old lives
Time continued to fly past them, but the stories lasted
Thousands of years went by, until the stories were all they had
Story, after story, after story
One day, a young boy, who only knew the stories of the old world
Decided that the stories weren't enough
There is truth in these stories, he thought to himself
So he searched deep within, do the stories make sense he asked
Do the stories of the outer world apply to my life in the cave
And with the help of those around him, he found meaning to each one
He applied each story to his life in the cave
As he continued to probe at the meaning and significance of each
He realized that there was a way to make life in the cave its own story
Sharing with those around him, he inspired others to make the stories their own
And all of sudden, the cave began to crack, the walls started to wither away
But the people inside weren't scared, rather they were ready
The stories prepared them to love the outer world
Day after day, as time went on, the cave deteriorated more and more
Big pieces of the wall started to fall away
The light from outside began shining brightly inside
People saw glimpses of the world in the stories, the world they once knew
Yet now, they were ready to experience it fully
Their vessels had developed enough through the stories
That the vast treasures of the outer world no longer scared them
Rather the treasures were now become a part of them
And so the people worked hard to find the way out of their cave
The way they once came in it, finding their way out
And as soon as the cave was no longer necessary, it simply disappeared.
From Tohu to Tikkun and into the World to Come.

Time To Write... Again..

B"H

I started this blog about four years ago when I had just began my journey of return. I wrote three things and then stepped away. I guess life got busy, or I got lazy... but I put my written expressions on hold. G-d Willing, as I sit in the Bais Midrash of Mayanot, (the seminary in Jerusalem where I am now studying) I can say I'm starting to express myself again.

It's okay, I hope, to get inspired and decide to take on something new. That's ulitmately what I wanted this blog to be when I first created it. A way to express myself and my journey. Even more so, I envisioned this blog to be a place where others who are going through a similar journey could come to to get a few words of inspiration or comment and inspire me. But I stopped sharring my writings, for almost four years. And that's not so okay, but it's not the end of the world.

A journey of return is not, at least for me, going to be 100% perfect. In the past three years I've found myself going forward three steps, back two and then doing it all over again. Only recently have I gotten better at taking things on that I know I can handle, and not beating up on myself when I don't take something on right away. But at the same time, I've noticed that I'm not going backwards so often anymore. Instead of three steps forward and two back, I'm taking one step forawrd at a time... and I'll do this four or five times, and then I'll take a step back. So for every four steps forward there is one back insteading of going back two steps for every three... Ultimately I find myself three steps ahead rather then just one.

My journey is not so fast, one day at a time. One step at a time. One Mitzvah at a time. But its also gotten a lot more peaceful. So as much as I think that it's not so great to start something and then just forget about it for four years, the real loss I believe is if you never pick it back up again. It's been a really long pause, but G-d Willing, I'm back. I can't promise how often, but I can truley try to be more consistent. Writing is an amazing tool. Writing abou Hashem is even more powerful. I hope that at this point and time I can get back to using this powerful tool as a means to connect with others going through the same thing.

Enjoy the past posts, and the future ones still to come.