Time To Write... Again..

B"H

I started this blog about four years ago when I had just began my journey of return. I wrote three things and then stepped away. I guess life got busy, or I got lazy... but I put my written expressions on hold. G-d Willing, as I sit in the Bais Midrash of Mayanot, (the seminary in Jerusalem where I am now studying) I can say I'm starting to express myself again.

It's okay, I hope, to get inspired and decide to take on something new. That's ulitmately what I wanted this blog to be when I first created it. A way to express myself and my journey. Even more so, I envisioned this blog to be a place where others who are going through a similar journey could come to to get a few words of inspiration or comment and inspire me. But I stopped sharring my writings, for almost four years. And that's not so okay, but it's not the end of the world.

A journey of return is not, at least for me, going to be 100% perfect. In the past three years I've found myself going forward three steps, back two and then doing it all over again. Only recently have I gotten better at taking things on that I know I can handle, and not beating up on myself when I don't take something on right away. But at the same time, I've noticed that I'm not going backwards so often anymore. Instead of three steps forward and two back, I'm taking one step forawrd at a time... and I'll do this four or five times, and then I'll take a step back. So for every four steps forward there is one back insteading of going back two steps for every three... Ultimately I find myself three steps ahead rather then just one.

My journey is not so fast, one day at a time. One step at a time. One Mitzvah at a time. But its also gotten a lot more peaceful. So as much as I think that it's not so great to start something and then just forget about it for four years, the real loss I believe is if you never pick it back up again. It's been a really long pause, but G-d Willing, I'm back. I can't promise how often, but I can truley try to be more consistent. Writing is an amazing tool. Writing abou Hashem is even more powerful. I hope that at this point and time I can get back to using this powerful tool as a means to connect with others going through the same thing.

Enjoy the past posts, and the future ones still to come.